It seems like forever til 8:30. I wonder why I even wait that long to get to the gym -- ahh. Body Jam. I like that class. At some point I actually feel like I'm beautiful -- well, of course I don't become drop dead gorgeous in two sashays -- but it makes me feel good about myself, you know? And on nights like this after a whole week's worth of studies killed and OATs failed and certain officemates dodged -- I think I really need it. To feel good about myself again.
Ahh, 8:15. I think I should be going now. But I missed this a lot -- killing time. Seems I don't have enough time to kill lately. Been sleeping at 4am to catch up on extra-curriculars, and waking up at 7am to catch up on my day job. I can't afford to give up one or the other at this point. So seems sleep will have to wait. But this is nice. Sort of "me" time.
I'll be gone awhile. Off to Iloilo for my grandfather's wake and burial (he will be dearly missed :-( ) Maybe the break could help me sort things of my own out as well. Been having issues rethinking the direction my life has taken me. I seem to be stuck in a rut and I so want to budge out of it. But I don't know how. I think I need a long-term plan -- I've been living off by the day too long and I feel I'm riding off to nowhere tuloy. As I said, I need to figure stuff out.
On another note, it has been better between us lately. I actually feel like we're friends again. I'm glad that one's turning out well, at least.
