That one, I didn't see coming. Life is smart that way -- just when you thought you were one step ahead, it comes from behind and catches you off guard.
Well, that happened suddenly enough for me not to remember what it was, or how it went, not to feel the pain I was so psyching myself up for since last week. Yeah, that Grand Incident. I didn't feel the Grandness of it, just mere flashes. Did I expect too much of the old stuff to come tumbling back just like that? Because it didn't. I didn't even feel a thing. Just this "Oh.." moment when things don't turn out as planned, don't feel as you had imagined it would feel, don't happen on schedule, don't change your life as much as you would have wanted it to.
Oh.
That was over real fast. And it didn't even feel life-changing, didn't even feel Grand, at the very least. Just made me see you in a sort of different light, see myself in a sort of different place -- softly, almost quietly, like two scenes fading to and from black, where everything else in between happens so peacefully. The unsaid goodbye, the soft thankful smile, the mending of the heart, the kind friendship that spawns afterwards.
So maybe it served its purpose, even if it isn't in the manner I had pictured it would. Life's smart like that.
