A brand new year, a brand new me. Twenty-third of the versions of me I've been making and re-making for most of my lifetime. Resolutions for the year? Lose 20 pounds, get a driver's license, and do something really worthwhile -- wraps it up nicely in three breaths.
Looking back, it's been fun. But I'm not looking back anymore (well save for the good stuff, siyempre). I'm totally over 2006.
Oh, but one last thing, though...
I won't get hurt this time. At least, not too much, when you tell her stuff I wish you could be telling me. Did you ever try to see me in that light, after I told you how I felt? Hindi ko rin naman gagawin sa'yo yung ginawa ng iba before. Yung mga nagpaasa sa'yo na meron, tapos wala pala. If you'd only give me a chance. But it seems you've already shut me out.
I can't really blame you. It's just that you're in love with her. That part can't be helped. So I guess I'll let it go. Kung hindi kaya siya yung gusto mo, would you even give me time of day? I know you only hang out with me because it increases your chances of spending time with her. I get it, really, I always have. Ako lang yung mapilit na umaasa.
Parang ikaw. Pare-pareho lang naman tayo lahat. Umaasang mahalin nung mahal natin, o mabigyan man lang ng pagkakataon to prove na (contrary to what you said you believe) you CAN make someone who doesn't like you much really love you back.
But I'm seriously over you now. Of course, once in a while, I still wonder how things would be if things had turned out as I hoped they would. That would have been peachy. Ayoko na rin, ngayon. And I'm not sourgraping. I guess I just tired out of being the girl who's waiting for you to come around.
Kung ayaw mo, huwag mo, kumbaga.
Goodbye suckers, hello 2007.
