As my teammate mildly put it, "So what's new?"
I'm afraid I'm turning into something I'm not really sure I want to be. It may have been amusing for a time, ruffling people's feathers, nonchalantly throwing my temper around, and all that -- but I seriously think it's getting serious.
I'm turning into a monster. A bitchy one, at that.
So, what's new? I can casually enumerate ten people who would vouch for that in a heartbeat -- five of whom have probably had a head-on collision with little Miss Hothead and would gladly douse me with an ice-cold tub of water -- and the other five of whom have probably had that same head-on collision, decided they still want to be my friend despite it, and as real friends do, would unwillingly douse me with water just to teach me a lesson I just seem to refuse learning the easy way.
Keeping my cool.
I so need to work this out. Maybe I should try that counting to ten thing -- well in my case, I think I need counts to the twenties or thirties to get over bouts of bitchiness.
Aggh. I hate myself so much now -- for always failing this and being such a kid when it comes to handling situations -- getting out of it by being bratty or screamy. I'm angry at myself for not getting this simple thing right.
How hard should keeping your cool be? I know I can do better than this.
*cue in Jack Nicholson "I feel pretty" song number*
Uhh... yeah, maybe.
