Is that why I'm so tired? Because I put so much effort into noticing, and then just as much effort into not noticing, and maybe twice the effort in getting noticed that I'm either not noticing OR noticing?
That opening query alone is enough to give me the migraine normally instigated by an entire bar of Extra Dark chocolate.
So that leaves me with the real problem: what do I do now that I know what I've been doing all this time? Now that I'm not even sure which one of all the options of things to do, is the one that does not require me actually trying anything.
Are you as lost as I am right now?
I can't wait to get away to my quiet corner alone this extra long weekend and not think. I need to stop thinking.
Nooninooninoo.
