Remind me again why I didn't say hi.
Now I remember.
Your macho sh*t... it isn't really charming. And I don't know why I hate you so much for it. Okay, so maybe, on one end, I'm selfish -- because I know I'm not part of that world you obviously dwell in, now. But I think I hate you more because you suddenly seem to be the typical guy I so hoped you weren't. Which reminds me, you never did reply to that message I sent. I don't want to be the first with the big gesture again -- seems I've been saying 'Hi' and 'Merry Christmas' first for the longest time, and it was always your call whether or not you'd reply. You usually didn't. Ikaw naman taya pagdating sa "big gesture" na yan. And until then, I won't hang around waiting for the miracle to happen.
Now that I remember, let's forget it.
Moving on to other things. He's been different, all of a sudden. Mailap. Parang nagdadalawang-isip pa siya kung babatiin niya ba ako, o ngingitian, o papapansinin. Ano be??! Para namang wala tayong pinagsamahan. Actually, wala naman talaga, save for that one occasion. Pero huwag mo naman sanang isiping nagtatapon ako ng pagkakaibigan ng ganun-ganun nalang dahil sa bulung-bulungan. I'm a little more tough to get rid of.
In all honesty, medyo mailap din naman ako. I don't want you to think I'm requiring you to be nice to me if you're not up to it. Especially with all the strange news going around. If it's going to make matters worse for you, oks lang. That was never my intention, anyway. I may understand the thing about being just friends -- ewan ko lang yung iba. So if it helps, I could lie low if you like. I know what you're going through, I know it's rough. Hang on. Maraming magpapanggap na kaibigan ka, pero naghihintay lang ng pagkakataon, o ng papuri, o ng pasasalamat. Stay close to the real ones. You'll need them the most.
I hope I can be one, if you'll let me in.
