Ang daming dapat gawin, and all of them are equally gruelling, either physically or mentally... I feel like I'll just bug down any second. Sigh. There's an ongoing shoot, then a pitch with the Marl team, and another one for Coke Light right after.
I haven't seen one trace of him. I doubt I ever will, maybe until the trip. By then I think I'll be in too much of a daze to overthink stuff, as I normally would, on a regular, non-stressful work season. Which would be good for me, I think. The past days of non-contact haven't been as bad as the "Ugh I terribly miss him." era (ewww). For a moment, I've gotten the hang of it. Being indifferent.
Uber busyness. That's the trick, think.
Nakasanayan ko na lang ata siyang i-bring up when I blog kaya he naturally sprouted from the back of my head when I started posting. Uy defending myself.
So for a change, I'll end my post on a different note. A note that does not involve him, ahahhaha. I think I'm happier now than I thought I would be, after nearly two years of being in the industry. Which is surprising considering what I first felt about it. Of course, I still hate a lot of bits... ranging from irritating timings to irritating people (tulad ni *bleep* na ni-Ninja tactics ko kanina hahhahaha)... but I think there's something to love in it, after all. I can't exactly tell what it is (especially with all the *bleep*s in the business making it seem pretty sh*tty), but I AM pretty sure that not every employee can say that about her job. So on that one bit, I'm pretty lucky.
I like being uber busy. Because I feel useful. I feel relevant. And it feels good. (Plus, I feel like *bleep* can't have anything on me because of that -- HA! I just so hate her today. Oh, I do everyday. But channeling it this way is good. So I don't feel one bit guilty. Haahahahha.)
I think I'm still a hateful person (see previous post). But I think this one's in a nice, positivized way. Just the way *bleep* likes it. HOhohohho. Ang daming banat!
