Today, I will be the bigger person I claim myself to be.
Today, I will not be selfish. I will not be a diva. I will not let my emotions get the best of me. I will not be self-serving. I will not be self-righteous. I will not be self-centered. I will not be insecure.
Today, I will not resent. I will not demand. I will not expect. I will not hate. I will not hurt. I will not hold grudges.
Today, I will not cry. I will not long. I will not want.
Today, I will nothing.
If I'm saying I've grown up, and I really believe it, I will not have been the way I've been the past two weeks. The past two months. Even the past two years. I should have been adult enough to handle things differently. Self-assuredly. Gracefully. Not like a six year old crybaby whose Happy Meal box has been snatched away from her.
So today, if I do find myself not doing nothing, let it only be this: I will be deliberate. Deliberate about what I'm about to do or what I'm about to say. Deliberate so that I will not hurt anybody. Including myself.
Today, I will take the High Road. In the hope I find some clarity at the end of this dusty, foggy path, and make the right turn to who knows where.
Is it okay if you wait for me there?
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If you can't, I'll be okay if you'll be okay.
