After nearly half a year of dry spells, it finally rained yesterday. Apart from the relief from the thick humid air enveloping the metro and setting everyone on edge, it never really dawned on me how comforting the rain can be, until yesterday. It always makes me feel like the Heavens are crying with me so I won't have to go through the trouble of puffy-ing my eyes up and clogging up my sinuses. Yeah, the rain was a welcome twist to the way things are panning out so far.
It seems my rainy days are just starting to brew. The past two weeks alone have been draining my resolve to be steady and collected. Too many things happening, at too close intervals, you could say my bouncing back reflexes are far from polished.
Picking up from heartbreak, I guess, is something normal people don't want to be too good at -- because that's just setting yourself up for way more than the normal person's share in a lifetime. Let's just say, I've had way more than the normal person's share in the span of a couple weeks. Just when I thought I had it pat down, some plan gets foiled, some promise gets broken, some unexpected text opens the dam of the past, some person waltzes into the scene unannounced, and then another, and then another. As if one heartbreak is not enough to toughen up the frailest of hearts.
But who am I to complain? I would think some people go through worse, even those who cause you the most pain, intentional or not. We all deal with it the best we can, however way we can, with whatever hope, or memory, or person, or text message we can cling on to. Anything to make anything easier. And sometimes it works, and it's all good for a while. And when it doesn't, we deal with it again, and again, and again. In the hope that someday, it will all go away by itself, or someone will come by and take all the pain away, or at the very least make it worth your while.
And while dealing with it is tough, waiting it out's no easy feat, either. Whether one, or the other, some things need to be done, and braved. I haven't cried this week yet. Maybe I'm getting used to it. Maybe it's going away. Maybe it's the rain.
