Everything happened as planned. The little surprises made everything even more pleasant. It was a good birthday -- better than most I've had. Even the guy from Fitness First greeted me at the entrance first thing in the morning (by my body clock, ah). Parang naka-plant siya doon to start off all the nice stuff to come my way. The loads of text, the nice salesladies sa mga tindahan, the pretty shirts on super sale, the yummy sashimi nung dinner. Pag birthday mo, you have this aura surrounding you, as if nothing could go wrong. At ang buong mundo, nagco-conspire to make sure it stays that way for the rest of the day. Either that, or the smile pasted on my face read "Do not mess up my day today, because I'm feeling hell great and you'll have it on your conscience forever if you do. By the way it's my birthday, you should greet me."
Sana araw-araw birthday ko. Tapos sana, dun nalang matapos. Yun bang wala nang back-to-reality phase -- 'di mo na iispin na bukas, tapos na 'to. Bukas, hindi mo na araw. Malamang-lamang, bukas, di ka na uli niya papansinin, o bibigyan ng unsolicited hug, o kahit simpleng text man lang.
Isang araw lang kada taon. Parang bitin. For 365 days in a year, parang kuripot ang dating ng birthday god para mamigay ng keyk. Parang salmon sashimi, kada order bitin. Pero langit sa sarap -- baka yun yung big idea.
Sabi nung kaibigan ko, whenever she's in love, it feels like everyday's her birthday. I think I get it now. Baka dahil I'm not yet in love. Sa totoo lang, I have no problems not being loved back (yeah, right, of course I don't *sarcasm teems*) mas natatakot ata ako sa possibility na hindi ko pa nararamdaman yun. Yung punch-drunk kind ha -- I think I've had my share of the love-kuno drama. But not the real thing. Of that much, I'm sure. At man, matanda na ako to not yet feel it. OA naman sa late blooming nito. Sana dumating na siya -- kahit di niya ako mahalin, basta ma-feel ko na "sh*t, siya na." Pero sh*t naman, sana kung ngayon lang siya dadating, mahalin niya na ako diba? Hay. Ano ba to? Post-birthday o pre-valentine blues? Must be both -- I get this every year, I tell you.
Actually, 'di ko na dapat araw ngayon. Pero yung simula, akala ko extension. Happy birthday part 2, kumbaga. Pero ewan, parang ang bilis nung back-to-reality bit -- lalo tuloy nahalata. Sabagay, swerte narin ako it lasted til this morning. Others don't stay this birthday happy this long. Happy joy.
Happy birthday to me. Sana mag-birthday ka na rin soon, at sana kasing saya ng araw ko ang araw mo. :-)
